Wow! Has it almost been a month! Oy oy oy, I need to do a better job at keeping this blog up!!! I’m sill in Regina, still trying to get accustomed to it (slowly…maybe…kinda…). Theres been days when I just cant imagine being anywhere else and I really love it here but those are far and few between. Mostly I’m homesick and just want to go home. I’ve never had homesickness before, so I have no idea how long it lasts but I hope it goes away SOON!
I have the opportunity to move to Norway for two years starting in January. This had been a dream of mine for three years and now that I have the chance…I’m sitting here hesitating about it. I’d love love love to go Norway. I think I would be extremely happy there. I can just imagine being there, seeing the fjords and the midnight sun, speaking Norwegian with people and not getting weird looks, being there for syttende mai….I’d love every single minute of it. …
But….that’s MY plan for me….not GOD’S plan for me.
Ya, sure I would love my plan for me and God would use it, but I am sure I will get more out of His plan for me…and God wants me here in Regina…*sighs*…..maybe I need to try and love Regina a little more and stop fighting it.
Maybe part of walking on the water is being where God wants you and enjoying it no matter what and fulfilling the purpose He has for you there and not going and running off and following your own plans (Many are the plans in the mind of a man,
but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.)
I’m where God wants me, being tested, being refined and being prepared for what God has in store for me. I need to stop looking for escape routes and excuses to leave.
Ohh and let me tell you, sometimes that refining hurts...hurts alot. I feel like I am being scraped down but I know in the end I will be more the person God wants me to be so its worth it. I feel blessed to have such sweet friends to be able to encourage me and help me through this time! I love you guys to bits! Hugs!
Shalom!
Friday, 24 August 2012
Tuesday, 31 July 2012
Options
Today I am having a sandwich for lunch. Too many people that seems so boring but for me it is amazingly wonderful! You see, I have not had a sandwich since being diagnosed with celiac disease back in November!
There is this wonderful gluten free bakery in Regina called “Kneaded” that specializes in gluten free baking and there is no chance of cross contamination since it is dedicated to being 100% gluten free!!! For the first time in months I am enjoying bread and waffles…its so wonderful! I didn’t realize how much I was missing! I am so happy that this bakery is here and everything is so fresh and wonderful!
Also today I was talking with a friend and her Mom about Zimrat and I realized that I would have to bring all my own food for camp since I am celiac and everything would either have gluten or be cross contaminated. That’s a week of meals…3 meals a day x 6= 18 meals! Yikes! I talked with them about it and since I would be paying the camp fee( that includes meals) and I would not be eating the meals but rather replacing them a more expensive meal, it would not be right….so since I didn’t really want to go to camp for a week anyways, we worked out a possible alternative! I am possibly just going out to Zimrat for the weekend and paying a smaller fee and also managing meals for myself would be much easier that! As long as everything works out everyone is happy in the end! Baruch HaShem! God is so good! :D
Shalom Everyone!
There is this wonderful gluten free bakery in Regina called “Kneaded” that specializes in gluten free baking and there is no chance of cross contamination since it is dedicated to being 100% gluten free!!! For the first time in months I am enjoying bread and waffles…its so wonderful! I didn’t realize how much I was missing! I am so happy that this bakery is here and everything is so fresh and wonderful!
Also today I was talking with a friend and her Mom about Zimrat and I realized that I would have to bring all my own food for camp since I am celiac and everything would either have gluten or be cross contaminated. That’s a week of meals…3 meals a day x 6= 18 meals! Yikes! I talked with them about it and since I would be paying the camp fee( that includes meals) and I would not be eating the meals but rather replacing them a more expensive meal, it would not be right….so since I didn’t really want to go to camp for a week anyways, we worked out a possible alternative! I am possibly just going out to Zimrat for the weekend and paying a smaller fee and also managing meals for myself would be much easier that! As long as everything works out everyone is happy in the end! Baruch HaShem! God is so good! :D
Shalom Everyone!
Thursday, 26 July 2012
Perspective
Last night I invited a couple people to come over for a prayer night. From my side, it was wonderful. There were just three people including me, it was small but yet so wonderful! I love praying for my friends and I feel so blessed when my friends share their troubles with me and allow me to pray for them. I believe that prayer is powerful and can change and heal things.
Also last night I realized that how you deal with things is all in the perspective of things. You can look at things with a negative attitude and be down and out about it or you can find the positives in it and focus on that. Being positive does not mean that things are going to turn out just they you want them or things are going to go wonderfully and smoothly, it just means that you are going to see the blessings God’s given you even in the hardest of times. God didn’t promise that life would be easy, He promised that we would have trials in our lives and He also promised that He would never leave is nor forsake us. Hold fast to Gods word during the hard times, cling to Him and He will comfort you and help you to see the positives
As my friend was leaving last , she said something to me that is forever going to be in my brain
“Maybe you don’t need Regina, maybe Regina needs you.
All I could say( and yes it was in Norwegian) “Hva?” (What?)
“You’re an instigator”
Ok, so I guess thats also in the perspective of things. This entire time I was thinking that I was going to get something out of Regina, maybe I’m here for another reason. Who knows? Only God does. But I would have never once thought to look at it that way, and I am sure those words that came out of her mouth were straight from our loving Abba!
Shalom!
Also last night I realized that how you deal with things is all in the perspective of things. You can look at things with a negative attitude and be down and out about it or you can find the positives in it and focus on that. Being positive does not mean that things are going to turn out just they you want them or things are going to go wonderfully and smoothly, it just means that you are going to see the blessings God’s given you even in the hardest of times. God didn’t promise that life would be easy, He promised that we would have trials in our lives and He also promised that He would never leave is nor forsake us. Hold fast to Gods word during the hard times, cling to Him and He will comfort you and help you to see the positives
As my friend was leaving last , she said something to me that is forever going to be in my brain
“Maybe you don’t need Regina, maybe Regina needs you.
All I could say( and yes it was in Norwegian) “Hva?” (What?)
“You’re an instigator”
Ok, so I guess thats also in the perspective of things. This entire time I was thinking that I was going to get something out of Regina, maybe I’m here for another reason. Who knows? Only God does. But I would have never once thought to look at it that way, and I am sure those words that came out of her mouth were straight from our loving Abba!
Shalom!
Monday, 23 July 2012
Zimrat Yah!
Last summer I heard about a Messianic Youth camp called Camp Zimrat Yah( Song of God) from my friends Luci and Lucas. Between them and God they convinced me that I should go. So I registered and went. It was fun. I met a lot of cool people at the camp. I’m not super close with anyone from the camp but I do hang out with and talk with people from there still.
So with Zimrat coming up in August and me still not registered to go one can only guess what people have been telling me
“Krystal, you should come to Zimrat”
“Krystal, are you registered for camp yet?”
“Krystal, how come you are not coming to camp”
You get the point. So how come I don’t want to go to Zimrat this year? Mostly because I don’t really feel I fit in with the people from camp, I don’t feel close to anyone there. I don’t hang out with anyone from camp outside of camp except for when I make it happen. This kinda hurts because I wish they would just randomly come over, or invite me to something. I feel like it’s a one sided relationship. That’s kind of a stupid reason for not going to camp I know but I feel rejected, so I just want to hide in the shadows and pretend camp isn’t happening but since moving to Regina that has been impossible as its all everyone I know is talking about.
I think I should get out of my boat though and walk on the water and go to camp and have a good time and focus on my relationship with Yeshua and not worry about fitting in with people and having good friends from camp. This is something that is going to be in my prayers this week as I am going to make a decision about going or not by this Shabbat.
Shalom!
So with Zimrat coming up in August and me still not registered to go one can only guess what people have been telling me
“Krystal, you should come to Zimrat”
“Krystal, are you registered for camp yet?”
“Krystal, how come you are not coming to camp”
You get the point. So how come I don’t want to go to Zimrat this year? Mostly because I don’t really feel I fit in with the people from camp, I don’t feel close to anyone there. I don’t hang out with anyone from camp outside of camp except for when I make it happen. This kinda hurts because I wish they would just randomly come over, or invite me to something. I feel like it’s a one sided relationship. That’s kind of a stupid reason for not going to camp I know but I feel rejected, so I just want to hide in the shadows and pretend camp isn’t happening but since moving to Regina that has been impossible as its all everyone I know is talking about.
I think I should get out of my boat though and walk on the water and go to camp and have a good time and focus on my relationship with Yeshua and not worry about fitting in with people and having good friends from camp. This is something that is going to be in my prayers this week as I am going to make a decision about going or not by this Shabbat.
Shalom!
Sunday, 22 July 2012
Walking on the Water
Sorry, that I have not updated this blog in a while! I have been busy, and then I just kept putting off turning my laptop on. Since getting my iphone I have not turned my laptop on that often!
Back when I was trying to make up my mind about moving to Regina( God had told me He wanted me to move to Regina, I was just hesitating) a friend told me the story of Peter walking on the water and related it to my life. I had to get out of my comfort zone, trust Yeshua and walk on the water. So I am walking on the water! A couple days later my sister without knowing what my other friend had said told me to listen to the song "Walk on the Water" by Britt Nicole, I am going to share a verse from that song with you:
"So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to alter you
You know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all
It takes and you can
Walk on the water too"
I have come to love this song very much and it has such meaning to me and I have sang and listened to it so many times since moving to Regina.
So yes, it is official, I am all moved and settled into Regina, getting used to the city and settling into a routine while looking for a job and hanging out with a few people.
Regina has been fun so far, although I must admit that I am homesick for the first time in my life! Crazy, I know! I have lived away from home for three years and I am finally homesick for once! I think its because I have very few friends here and I feel like a fish out of water. At LCBI and CLBI I knew lots of people before going there so it was like moving to another home. Here, I know few people and am not close with any of them. This is probably the biggest reason for being homesick. I know the solution to that is simple MAKE MORE FRIENDS! Sounds easy, right? Nope, not for me! For some of you, that may be a shock! For those of you that know me, I am very outgoing and like to talk a lot. But I am also really shy, and I don’t know how to make friends. At LCBI and CLBI you were expected to bond with people and get to know them and you were given opportunities to bond with people. Also living with people made you even closer.
So now that I am outside of those circumstances I am at a lost and don’t know how to make friends! This is going to be a learning experience for me!
It’s also hard to adjust to living in a city, I lived in Camrose when I went to Bible school and that’s a city but somehow it did not feel like it at all. I am not used to having so many houses close together. I am sure that came out sounding like a true farm kid. Haha. I have had a few good times in Regina so far. The first night someone I knew from Zimrat took me to a Saskatchewan Roughriders game. That was a lot of fun! I was so happy to go to a Riders game! I had also had someone over this past Shabbat for a Erev Shabbat meal. That was lots of fun. The next day, her and I went to Torah study in a smaller town about half an hour away from Regina! That was a lot of fun! It was so nice to spend the day with other Messianic’s reading and discussing Torah. After that we went to someone else’s house and played games. While playing games and hanging out, everyone was making jokes and I have not laughed that much or hard in a good while! It felt so good just to laugh like that. They are some really awesome people and I am so blessed to know them all!
One thing that I really love about Regina is Wascana Park! You can walk around the lake and they have a fountain just like in Camrose. It reminds me of Camrose in a way and it is such a blessing to have something so home like here! It is kind of helping with the homesickness and the adjusting.
I think I am going to end this with a few pictures of my time so far in Regina!
At my first Riders game with Danielle!
My first Erev Shabbat dinner at my house in Regina!
At Wascana Park!
Again at Wascana Park!
Shalom!
Back when I was trying to make up my mind about moving to Regina( God had told me He wanted me to move to Regina, I was just hesitating) a friend told me the story of Peter walking on the water and related it to my life. I had to get out of my comfort zone, trust Yeshua and walk on the water. So I am walking on the water! A couple days later my sister without knowing what my other friend had said told me to listen to the song "Walk on the Water" by Britt Nicole, I am going to share a verse from that song with you:
"So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to alter you
You know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all
It takes and you can
Walk on the water too"
I have come to love this song very much and it has such meaning to me and I have sang and listened to it so many times since moving to Regina.
So yes, it is official, I am all moved and settled into Regina, getting used to the city and settling into a routine while looking for a job and hanging out with a few people.
Regina has been fun so far, although I must admit that I am homesick for the first time in my life! Crazy, I know! I have lived away from home for three years and I am finally homesick for once! I think its because I have very few friends here and I feel like a fish out of water. At LCBI and CLBI I knew lots of people before going there so it was like moving to another home. Here, I know few people and am not close with any of them. This is probably the biggest reason for being homesick. I know the solution to that is simple MAKE MORE FRIENDS! Sounds easy, right? Nope, not for me! For some of you, that may be a shock! For those of you that know me, I am very outgoing and like to talk a lot. But I am also really shy, and I don’t know how to make friends. At LCBI and CLBI you were expected to bond with people and get to know them and you were given opportunities to bond with people. Also living with people made you even closer.
So now that I am outside of those circumstances I am at a lost and don’t know how to make friends! This is going to be a learning experience for me!
It’s also hard to adjust to living in a city, I lived in Camrose when I went to Bible school and that’s a city but somehow it did not feel like it at all. I am not used to having so many houses close together. I am sure that came out sounding like a true farm kid. Haha. I have had a few good times in Regina so far. The first night someone I knew from Zimrat took me to a Saskatchewan Roughriders game. That was a lot of fun! I was so happy to go to a Riders game! I had also had someone over this past Shabbat for a Erev Shabbat meal. That was lots of fun. The next day, her and I went to Torah study in a smaller town about half an hour away from Regina! That was a lot of fun! It was so nice to spend the day with other Messianic’s reading and discussing Torah. After that we went to someone else’s house and played games. While playing games and hanging out, everyone was making jokes and I have not laughed that much or hard in a good while! It felt so good just to laugh like that. They are some really awesome people and I am so blessed to know them all!
One thing that I really love about Regina is Wascana Park! You can walk around the lake and they have a fountain just like in Camrose. It reminds me of Camrose in a way and it is such a blessing to have something so home like here! It is kind of helping with the homesickness and the adjusting.
I think I am going to end this with a few pictures of my time so far in Regina!
At my first Riders game with Danielle!My first Erev Shabbat dinner at my house in Regina!
At Wascana Park!
Again at Wascana Park!Shalom!
Thursday, 21 June 2012
Moving!
I am moving in like 20 days!!! That’s right everyone, I have found a place to live in Regina and am moving there the first week in July! I am actually excited about! I am busy packing/sorting and cleaning! It’s crazy!
I know that God is with me on this move and that He will be with me no matter where I go. That is helping me not to be to stressed about it. I am also trying to cut back on my worrying and not worry to much about this move. Every time I start to worry about it I stop and make myself think of three positive things about the move. It’s actually working pretty well! I am looking forward to hopefully getting to know my Regina friends a bit better while I am living there.
I should be used to packing and unpacking things by now. After all I have done it six times but its one of those things that even though its gets easier with practice you still don’t get used to it. I must say though that after six times I have a pretty good system down for packing! Haha
Anyways I should get back to spending time with family/friends and pets as much as I can before I move!!!
Shalom Everyone!
Wednesday, 13 June 2012
WOW!
Wowie! Has it really been over a month since I have sat down and typed out something to put on here! I am going to have to make it a point to write something at least once a week! I do have a few things to share, some good and some bad. First off the bad. As most of you already know sweet precious Kolbjorn passed away on May 21st. That was pretty hard for me to take. I felt pretty down for a week about it, and I kept remembering the sweet things he would say and do. It is comforting though to know that Kol is with Yeshua and that I WILL see him again. It’s funny though that I still keep expecting to see him, I wonder how long it will take before I stop wondering that? I feel so blessed that I got to know sweet little Kol. He was such an inspiration to me. He always had a smile on his face, was ready with a hug and could always make me laugh. You will be missed sweet Kol!
A couple weeks ago I went camping with a couple friends of mine that I met at camp last year. I hadn’t seen either one of them since last August so it was a lot of fun. Both of them are completely hilarious( in a good way!) and they kept me laughing. It was so nice just to be able to hang out with friends and laugh. I am so blessed to have them both as friends. Lots of good memories were made that weekend for all three of us I am sure! They were even sweet enough to be willing to eat gluten free for the weekend. Brave, brave people!
While camping I learned that ticks are very intrusive little things…ohh and icky! My friends were not really impressed by them so I was removing them off their clothes/ getting them out of their tents etc. I was handling it pretty well( I am not really scared of ticks) until on the last night as I was going to sleep I felt one crawling up my back. It was pretty much an immediate strip down in the tent to get rid of it! Ugh! Then when I came home and showered I had three come crawling out of my hair, one attached to my leg and a week after the trip I found one embedded in my head that was already huge and white. Lovely. Thank you for taking up residence in my head but I didn’t have a sign that said “space for rent”. On our next camping trip ,tick repellent is going to be the first thing I pack!
Camping was also a nice way to de-stress after the passing of Kol. Just to be able to hang out, laugh and share stories did wonders for me. I think they should consider camping with friends a form of therapy! It does wonders, it really does! Thank you both for the amazing trip and taking the time to hang out with me. I appreciate it sooo much!
Also I have been making progress on the moving to Regina thing. I am actually looking for places and starting to pack. I am getting really excited and I am looking forward to it. Regina reminds me of Camrose so I hope that I feel at home there right away. Please keep it in your prayers that I find a place to live there soon! I must practice patience though, trust God and remember that things happen in Gods time not in mine! Patience Krystal, Patience! God will provide a place in His time! Easier said than done but hopefully with a little practice it will soon be easy!
My cousins grad is this weekend! Wow! Where has time gone? I still cant believe that she is old enough to be graduating from high school. It’s crazy. I don’t think I will believe it until I see her walking across the stage getting her diploma! Maybe not even then! Some days I still find it hard to believe that I graduated from high school Haha! Gods blessing to you in your future Hallie! Maybe the Lord be with you wherever you go!
Also Gods blessing to you my dear sweet friends and may the Lord bless you and keep you, may the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you, may the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace!
Shalom!
A couple weeks ago I went camping with a couple friends of mine that I met at camp last year. I hadn’t seen either one of them since last August so it was a lot of fun. Both of them are completely hilarious( in a good way!) and they kept me laughing. It was so nice just to be able to hang out with friends and laugh. I am so blessed to have them both as friends. Lots of good memories were made that weekend for all three of us I am sure! They were even sweet enough to be willing to eat gluten free for the weekend. Brave, brave people!
While camping I learned that ticks are very intrusive little things…ohh and icky! My friends were not really impressed by them so I was removing them off their clothes/ getting them out of their tents etc. I was handling it pretty well( I am not really scared of ticks) until on the last night as I was going to sleep I felt one crawling up my back. It was pretty much an immediate strip down in the tent to get rid of it! Ugh! Then when I came home and showered I had three come crawling out of my hair, one attached to my leg and a week after the trip I found one embedded in my head that was already huge and white. Lovely. Thank you for taking up residence in my head but I didn’t have a sign that said “space for rent”. On our next camping trip ,tick repellent is going to be the first thing I pack!
Camping was also a nice way to de-stress after the passing of Kol. Just to be able to hang out, laugh and share stories did wonders for me. I think they should consider camping with friends a form of therapy! It does wonders, it really does! Thank you both for the amazing trip and taking the time to hang out with me. I appreciate it sooo much!
Also I have been making progress on the moving to Regina thing. I am actually looking for places and starting to pack. I am getting really excited and I am looking forward to it. Regina reminds me of Camrose so I hope that I feel at home there right away. Please keep it in your prayers that I find a place to live there soon! I must practice patience though, trust God and remember that things happen in Gods time not in mine! Patience Krystal, Patience! God will provide a place in His time! Easier said than done but hopefully with a little practice it will soon be easy!
My cousins grad is this weekend! Wow! Where has time gone? I still cant believe that she is old enough to be graduating from high school. It’s crazy. I don’t think I will believe it until I see her walking across the stage getting her diploma! Maybe not even then! Some days I still find it hard to believe that I graduated from high school Haha! Gods blessing to you in your future Hallie! Maybe the Lord be with you wherever you go!
Also Gods blessing to you my dear sweet friends and may the Lord bless you and keep you, may the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you, may the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace!
Shalom!
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