Hard to Breathe

As I’m sitting here choking on my own breath…I am a bundle of mixed emotions.

Two weeks ago we had a long time family friend die suddenly from cancer, it was shocking to say the least. None of us are still really recovered from it.

On Saturday I got a text from a friend telling me that Kolbjorn’s brain tumour was growing once again, the DMSO treatments did help in the way that we had all hoped and prayed for.

What did this mean for little Kolbjorn? I honestly have no idea, all I know is that the life of that precious boy is in the hands of our wonderful Abba.

I am so overcome with emotion right now that its hard to breath, I want to scream and cry at the same time. I keep thinking of his smile and the way his face lights up when he sees me and how he runs over and gives me the biggest hug ever.

If I am feeling this way, I have no idea what his family is feeling and my heart goes out to them.

The one comfort I have is that if the worst happens Kolbjorn will be with his loving Abba and there will be no more pain for him. He will be where he wants most to be.

When Kolbjorn was first diagnosed 2 years ago-ish, I saw him at Church and I went over and was hugging him and trying to keep from crying. He pushed me away and put his hands on my face and said

“It’s ok to cry, I know I might die but if I die I will be with Jesus and that’s where I want to be”

Well that sure got my tears flowing.

My heart and prayers go out to Kolbjorn and his family. Please keep him and his family in your prayers.

On a more happy note, I have a cool story to share with everyone. As everyone knows I am thinking of moving to Regina because I feel that that is where God wants me.

Well, about a week ago I was talking with a friend who is moving to Regina for the summer, I was trying to convince her to move closer to me instead but it didn’t work. She kept telling me to move to Regina( Grrrrrrrrrrr :p ). So finally I said”, “it’s going to take a big flashing neon sign from God to get me to move there!”

Then I prayed “God if you want me to move to Regina give me a sign, the sign has to be someone I hardly know asking me if I live in Regina…”

Problem solved! Everyone knows where I live , no one will ask me if I live there…
The next day I get a random text from someone that I had just met and this is what it said

“”Do you live in Regina btw?””

　

Well…I guess I should go start packing now, hey? Hahaha I just hope that it ends up being a fun time there!!!!

Shalom!